왜? なぜ？Why? 为什么？爲什麽？

DBSK has always been 5 people together, this is almost like the millionth time that I have asked myself. When did they become JaeChunSu and HoMin???

I dont mind using "JaeChunSu" because thats the way they are being called. But i hate it when they are used like that --> I hate to see comments like "JaeChunSu are so sweet to one another!" "Awww JaeChunSu" "JaeChunSu are so close, fighting!"

I cant deny I fangirled to the fanmeeting yesterday too. Who wont? I fangirled so much. But today when I saw some comments, I became emo again. Because of those phrases. Just when I felt better, comments like these put me down.

I dont know...but it felt like HoMin are forgotten. To make things worse, Changmin is going to JeJu Island soon. To film his drama, Paradise Meadow. He is leaving on the 20th December. Without all his hyungs. . . And I think Yunnie cant really contact JaeChunSu. .

Yunnie. Speaking of him, it hurts even more. I miss him soooo much. SO MUCHHHHHHH. T___T. I miss his pictures, I miss his voice, I miss his presence....Why did it turn out like that?

Korea comeback for 5th album is cancelled. BigEast fan meeting for next year is also cancelled. Which means other than Kohaku and Super Live, we can only wait for their promotions for "Break Out!" single after 27th January. I am just afraid they might cancel that too...... I hope not!!!! After that....no activities lined up yet.

I am taking part in the BigEast project to break 500,000 copies record pre-orders, so I really pray they won't cancel the release...

I feel like I am walking on thin ice. Its so scary I might just fall anytime when they lose the battle to be together. They don't even live together anymore.. My heart, my mind and my soul. I lost them tonight....I cheer for them from the bottom of my heart, even though they will never know. I love DBSK.

윤호오빠 네가 너무보고 싶단다. . .

동방신기 네가 너무보고 싶단다. . .

THIS IS IT!

Went with awesome bunch of people and caught "This Is It!" by Michael Jackson. Really really touched by this movie. I think in this world, we can never find another Michael Jackson with stage presence like him EVER AGAIN.

I was enjoying the thing because I know that its super grand and I actually felt honoured to be able to sit in the theatre and to enjoy Michael's every last moment on stage. The concert will be awesome. I am very certain about it. Its a pity...really.

I totally cried during the credits roll when "Heal the World" came on. Its so touching T___T. This song is awesome, the lyrics is awesome! Aish.................................

MICHAEL JACKSON FOREVER!!

Check out my other MJ posts if you have the time or if you wish to:
http://jolly-hood.blogspot.com/2009/07/better-on-other-side.html
http://jolly-hood.blogspot.com/2009/06/rip.html

There is one more, which I cant dig out, too way back T__T. But anyway, I LOVE MICHAEL JACKSON!!!!

Anyway, after the movie and the crying, we went to Starbucks to chill.
Photo credits to Dexter. Megs and Aaron went home so they are not in shot.

Btw, before I go, lets us all enjoy this song, its called Off The Wall, one of my favouriteeeeee MJ tracks. Released in 1980 when I was not even born. LOVE IT.

Off The Wall - Michael Jackson

I am confused T___T

Its....terrible. I announce crisis in my fandom and thus, crisis in my heart. I TRUST DBSK A LOT and I WOULD LIKE TO SERIOUSLY HIGHLIGHT THAT. NOTHIN CAN WAVER MY TRUST, SUPPORT AND LOVE and please quote me on that.

I can spazz about anything under the sky, but if you know me well, DBSK is incomparable. irreplaceable, ALMOST EVERYTHING. I am sorry to put it so seriously, but sometimes, thats really the closest thing that I can think of to describe what they meant to me.

But I am confused. Very VERY VERYYYYY confused. I do not know who to trust other than them. Each report just seem to get worse. The relationship between SM and JaeChunSu just seems to get worse......

Plus, it doesn't help that there was a SIGNED DOCUMENT of HoMin showing their support for SM and together with SM, gave JaeChunSu ten days to make their decision. I do not blame it on anyone, call it bias, but I WILL NEVER BLAME IT ON DBSK. But i want to highlight that, I am neither one of the fans who are against SM strongly.

There was a letter from Yunho's dad and Changmin's dad. Read it if you want, find it or something, I do not want to mention the content of the letter here, but I agree with the many things inside.

I HATE to see if there are any fans who start to blame HoMin on siding SM. I HATE to see if there are any fans blaming on JaeChunSu to sue SM. This is not the time to blame anyone. The case has already started. Blaming doesnt help matters. It only serves to drive the rift even further apart.

DBSK IS FOREVER, their friendship is something that they share deeply and seriously, unless you are their mind and soul, how much do you know about the love they have for one another? 7 years going to 8 years of staying together is no joke. Plus, they spend almost every minute together, they are prolly everything to one another.

I do not deny that I cant be as calm as some fans are and simply brush everything off as UNTRUE and just wait for a statement from DBSK. In fact, I am pretty shocked people have actually said the signed document by Yunho and Changmin are fake....I agree with a comment I saw, "if it is fake, will SM be so stupid to release it to the Media knowing that HoMin will clarify it?" <-- exactly what I was thinking...therefore, I do not think their signatures are fake, though...I cant deny that Yunho signing with a star at the end and Changmin signing with Hanja is a little out of the usual..... I am very affected. The thought of them quarreling and being angry at one another is terrible. The thought of them being divided to 3:2 is terrible. The thought of DBSK not being DBSK is terrible. But I will try to clear up my thinking and be awesome for them. I just want to keep believing in them and in ten days' time(SM deadline for JaeChunSu) I TRUST that I will see a DBSK as whole as ever. Some gifs to lighten my mood, they never fail to:

Jaejoongie, being Jaejoongie. LOL. Love this show!

Look at how cute Jae is! XD!

OMG EPIC. ROFL!!! 2U~~~!! *___*

And well,I hope that this song is what I can see.....everything...goes back to the beginning..BEGIN - TOHOSHINKI. This song is from their Japanese album, Five in the black, one of my favourite albums of theirs. I cry everytime I see them performing this song live. Their voices touches my heart. Awesome music, awesome group, awesome DBSK. LOVE.

The part where Jae goes "Everyday~ and night~ with you~" omg...it really reaches your heart. at least to me...and I am not even a person who is known to like ballads. tell me if you like this song ^^

03.Begin - Tohoshinki

Jovis Bling! ★

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EUREKA! its YOUREKA! x)

Ya....hooo~~~! ROFL! Today I received a sudden text from Ping and she didnt say much, just said that there is a rare Yahoo! event that has a few spaces for us, I was asked to ask around, so I looked around I see my oktoLIVE! team mates since we are in the office. then I asked them and yada yada, in the end, wonting, flo, leen and me were on our way! :D

The first picture are the year threes and ping! And of course, Tania and Pat from Ogilvy :D They are nice people and ping's friends. I was kinda awed by them actually. o__o!

The second picture, with year threes and cute+not so cute juniors (ROFL, faris needsss to become a K fan) XD!

Btw, this is quite an interesting event to go to. We arrived at Suntec City after alighting from the cab and in many minutes, we are at the 37th floor of Tower 4. I was kinda struck by the big "YAHOO!" logo hanging on the wall, it felt cool! I mean, its YAHOO! ! something that we see a lot on the internet and the internet is perhaps something we called in Chinese "Wu Bian Wu Ji", it has no boundaries and no corners, its such a huge platform! if you know what I mean...but yes Yahoo!, I felt honoured.

We are treated to nice pizzas and nice little tarts which I think are called Quiches. I love the Cheese Quiche, its awesomeee -prevents sidetracking- :D

The presenter came in and BAM! we are exposed to something called the YOUREKA! launched by Yahoo! Singapore. YOUREKA! is like a digital treasure hunt online. It is a microsite with 392 mini tiles, whereby within these tiles, are services that Yahoo! offers, be it Yahoo Messenger, Mail etc. There are also tickets within these tiles and the tickets can win you prizes. Tickets come in Red, Blue and Green (RED and BLUE are like my favourite colours and GREEN is Yunnie's favourite colour xD). You can win prizes like a car specially designed by a Malaysian designer, Blackberry and an Adidas shoe!!

This is how the page look like when you log on to www.yahoo.com.sg :


You will see a banner at the top of the page, so just click on that and YOUREKA! LOL! you can start flipping those tiles and might be one of the lucky winner! hmm, perhaps taking a look at the site But seriously, when we suppose to ask questions, my first thought really was "18 to 25 years old? Car?" I mean...from my point of view, I dont really need a car and maybe I am not a driver sort of person but more like those that will swoon over cars like lamborghinis, but then again, when Ping gave her debrief, I realise, I really need to think more strategically and this is the thing I learnt today. VERY IMPORTANT TO ME (_ _)*/

Oh before I stop on this, let me show you how the tiles look like, they are quite cute, but prolly requires a bit of effort for you to find your prize. WAHAHAH

Many Many and MANY tiles! LOL!
This is what happens when you find a red ticket. LOL! gahhh, oh I realise there is like a music playig at the back, so its really like a treasure hunt, ROFL! didnt realise that just now because I think in that conference room, the speakers werent plugged in or something. XD

YOUREKA! aside, Yami told me she MET GACKT AT TAKA TODAY!!! *SPAZZZZZZ* HELLO, like,GACKT?!! And many people didnt recognise him! So Yami got to talk to him and SHOOK HANDS WITH HIM, then she was fangirling on her LJ like how her hands still smell of Gackt's perfume. AHHHH!! The funny part is that they were shocked (they as in Gackt and his assistants, stylist yada yada) that Yami knows Gackt, LOL! omgggg Gackt!!! -cant stop screaming- Btw, THIS is Gackt *____* omona~~~ so kyaaaanessssss!! LOVEEEE.




This last picture is gonna stay in my folder forever no matter what, oh look at those eyessssssss -diessssss- Gackt aishiteru! (is that how you say in Jap?) LOL!

But Yunnie and DBSK Oppas, I love you all more. Dont worry :D

EDIT: BTW, I AM WEARING YUNHO'S EVISU SHIRT TAKING PICTURES AT YAHOO!!!! For those who havent seen it yet:

-happy dances around room- *__* I know Yunnie is my luck. L-O-V-E.

Back to school!

Well, actually i have lotssssss to blog, all already tuck nicely in a folder, will blog it once time allows :D

Tomorrow is back to school again! I have weird feelings about it...it seems like, its the last time I am going to school..I mean of course, unless I go to the university XD

But anyway, I am just taking one step at a time, I hope I can handle everything, internship together with school! But I think I can do it. Fighting! (^O^)/

OktoLIVE team is getting amazing and we are beginning to show side effects of hanging out too much, because even someone like Shireeen and Megs can do the "HORRIBLE" move. XD

I miss my school and friends :D Tomorrow will be awesome I guess

Gonna update more soon! Bye! ^^

Here's the pinky sweet that DBSK oppas endorsed ♥♥♥♥♥



Jovis ♥ Yunho

ROFL!

btw, today...someone needs our prayers. Ryo will be awesome and safe no matter where he is. Good luck to you Ryo, no matter where you are. A friend's friend is a friend. ^^

MinSu.

Actually I should be sleeping now,but I thought of blogging a quick one first. Before that, let me remind myself of things to blog about

- ANTIQUE ( I love this movie!!!)
- BOUGHT SEOL LEIM!!!!
- MARCHE with sis (Swiss food is so freakinnn nice)
- My hamster
- Last but not least, DBSK DBSK DBSK DBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSKDBSK DBSK DBSK. *coughs from overload*

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Well, I was innocently listenin to oppas' purple line when wonting came on and I was thinking of chatting with her. So i chatted and she web cam/called me. I think she is trying to keep herself composed. LOL! When the call is connecting, I heard her talking to her oppa excitedly, then i was thinking must be one of her stalking outcomes again. I heard my name. ROFL. I am actually still embarassed I actually shouted to her oppa "OPPA ANNYEONGHASAEYO!" the other time. I dont sound embarassed, but I am, because her oppa dont even know who the hell I am I think. ROFL!! But I just want to have a feeling of saying hi to a Korean. Crazy? I know.

And so when she finished, her image finally came on and although I waved to her, I dont think she can see because my webcam is down. u___u.

She broke the news to me. I almost fainted. I want to let her be the first person to blog about this so I better not expose it here yet. ^^ But its super @!#$%^&*()(*&%$#@$%^*()_&^$# TO DIE FOR. -wonting dies in fangirl heaven- XD

I realy feel so happy for her!! Everything is like WORTH it immediately!! *_*

Oh, on a side note, I wanna say a hugeeee thank you to liting too!! ^^ Liting, Cass and Trix actually went to Japan! And duhhh. OPPAS REIGN JAP TOO OKAY.. So, I got liting to buy pinky sweets for me(endorsed by them) she is kind enough to help me get it and wrote on my fb wall that she got it for me already. I am soooo grateful for that!!! :D

And wonting, what can I say? Evisu,asta,lightstick,badge,junior,albums. gahhh. CHONGMAL GOMAWOYO~~ ^^

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Work is still manageable I think. Hope it gets better and better :D

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Fangirling is not something I can just stop. Fangirling is part of me. I miss all my oppas. Sings: "Everyday~~~ and Night~~~~" thats actually their song too. Called Begin, in their five in the black album. I love that album!!! *___*

I have been watching a lot of HTTG, fangirling to JaeChun (though I ship Yunjae more) and missing min and su oppas. So, I think I might as well give a prelude of them. I have actually been planning of sharing some highlights in my folders because I dont want to waste my 2000+ pictures. LOL. Shall highlight them here, keep it as a memory for myself too ^^

Saw Min's stalker pics, think he is working out a lot and really training hard for his drama. Su is probably hanging out with his brother and spending time with his fam

Some MinSu prelude~~




*SPAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ* SO CUTE *FAINTSSSS*

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Hmm, actually I decided to control myself and not blog about yunnie for once. LOL, but I juz recalled the article I read just now. I didnt know that Yunnie has to secretly go to hospitals for drips sometimes at 4am because he was overly tired and sick. He is known for being U-Knowsaurus, because he get injured very easily. Its like bad things happen to him easily thats why he fell from 4th floor before and his face has a scar. T___T.

Yunnie is the best because he never complains and believes in working hard. No matter how famous he is, he is still always the humble and kind boy from Gwangju. He is so innocent that he once wrote a letter to heaven when he is a little boy to pray for his grandmother's health. Waeeeeee. Why is he so awesome? T__T. I died a lot reading the article. 4am, drip. T___T I fail epicly for yunnie and thats why I epicly win.

항상 내 운명, 내 사랑, 윤호오빠요~ ^^